i'll bring You more than a song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=4OvebMRWU_g

1) "when the music fades, 
all is stripped away
and i simply come"

   i sometimes take my shoes off when i worship. this started recently. i guess it's a symbol to me of coming before God without anything but ME...and not the "me" that i let others see, but the REAL "me." my shoes symbolize my burdens, busyness, everyday life, outward appearance, trying to look like a "good Christian", etc. and when i take them off, all that's left is "me" no strings attached. it's me before God saying "i'm here before You with everything else behind me. i took off everything so i can be closer to You because You are all that matters to me right now." other things matter too much to me some days, but in those few minutes of worshipping without shoes, nothing else in the world matters.

2) "You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart"

      i've had a problem for a long time about not opening up to people. i'm getting better at it, but so many things in my life have burned me and made me think i couldn't say what was on my mind (especially if it sounded stupid). but one of the incredible things about God is that He doesn't just see what i let Him. He sees so much more than even i can see of myself. He looks deeper than the surface that i purposefully put out there! i absolutely LOVE that about Him!!!

3) "i'm sorry, Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about You
all about You, Jesus"

    i've mentioned this in an earlier blog, but sometimes i get so caught up in hearing my own voice while singing worship, making sure it sounds decent for the people around me, that i can't hear HIS voice. sometimes, i just love singing loud with the people of God, worshipping together as a body of Christ! but also sometimes when i start listening to myself more than God, i need to just be silent or sing quietly so i don't let myself get in the way of God getting the worship and praise He deserves.
     another thing, sometimes there are so many trials in my life that i let them define who i am. and when i come to worship Him, they are all i think about. i don't take just a few minutes to focus on the fact that it IS all about HIM. i find myself CONSTANTLY telling God about my problems and He wants me to talk to Him about them, but He also wants me to just listen to what He has to say to me.

4) "though i'm weak and poor
all i have is Yours
every single breath"

    i've been trying too hard to be strong on the outside that i haven't realized how WEAK i really am on the inside. part of my worship without shoes is saying that i don't "wear the shoes in this relationship." i am "weak and poor" and i will stay weak unless i give all i have to God, including my trials that i'm holding on to (pause. why am i even holding on to these trials? wouldn't it be easier to give them up? i don't understand humanity somedays!!)

"i'll bring You more than a song!"