dude! i am so selfish. i am filthy rich compared to most of the world and i have been worrying about money for the past week more than i have my whole life. i just found out that i didn't get the summer job i applied for. it was my last hope for a summer job. i had tried others, but they apparently weren't God's plan for me this summer.
so here i am with no way to make money this summer and no car. my thoughts all morning were "i NEED a car." i could hear God saying "really? do you really NEED a car?" i reluctantly replied "i don't NEED one, but i reeeally want one." i'm so tired of bothering people to give me rides everywhere. i'm sick of it and i want a car so badly.
so i've been sulking this morning about not having a car and not having a way to provide money to get the car. then i remembered a video on youtube that i found a while ago but haven't had time to watch it. i know it's long, but just watch the first 5 minutes and see what i mean when i said God just smacked me in the face!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBhqrtMqrv8&list=WL85FCA1A4166A061F&feature=mh_lolz
i can live without a car and you have no idea how hard it is for me to admit that. i've been telling myself this whole week that God has a plan for my summer and it's better than any plan i can come up with. my head knows that...i'm still trying to convince the rest of me of this truth. whatever happens happens; it's in God's hands now. i feel so out of control. i have to trust God...there's nothing else for me to do.
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