He catches me

"'Lord, if it's You,' Peter replied, 'tell me to come to You on the water.'
'Come,' He said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, 'Lord, save me!'
IMMEDIATELY Jesus reached out His hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,' He said, 'why did you doubt?'"
~Matthew 14:28-31

as i read these verses, i saw the picture of my life flash before my eyes. i doubt Him but He tells me to "come", to come even through the wind and the rain. i keep my eyes on Him for a little while, but the storms distract me. i try to do things on my own and think i have to save myself but i quickly start sinking. i finally cry out to Jesus to save me, knowing i don't deserve it, and He doesn't hesitate a minute. He was there waiting all along, letting me try it on my own because i pushed Him away and said "i've got this." but He knew i would keep sinking and eventually cry out in distress because i would realize i'm not strong enough, so He waited patiently until i called on Him so He could reach out His hand and catch me.