i just had a really great/heartbreaking conversation with a guy that i just met at lunch. i'm friends with this girl and he is friends with her boyfriend, so we all ate lunch together. our friends both had classes like 15 minutes later, so it was just the 2 of us for about another 30 minutes. we got into deep discussion about God and our different beliefs. the whole time i was pouring my heart out to him and telling him how God has changed my life, i searched for just the right words to make him really GET IT. it's heartbreaking to see that he still doesn't get it even after i told him how great God is. i'm so glad that God put this passion in my heart for the unsaved, but at the same time, it hurts to watch people be so ignorant when it comes to real life. This is the 2cd time that i remember that God really showed me that it's HIM that does the work in peoples' hearts. not ME. while we were talking, all i wanted to do was make him get saved. i didn't even care that he had a choice. i just wanted him to really GET IT and get it now. but i felt so helpless and weak.
he told me several stories about "christians" who have pushed him away from church and believing that christians are different. he said that his family left church because a minister told them that absence is sickness (this was after they were out for about 2 weeks with the flu). also, his mom's co-worker claims to be a christian, but is too lazy to do her work so she pushes it on his mom. it's these everyday life things that seem so small that make a difference. i tried to explain that real Christ-followers aren't like that and that so many people claim to be christians and act like hypocrites. i wish that people would stop ruining the reputation of true Christ-followers by saying they are christians but acting like the world. i don't blame him for looking at some people and choosing not to want Christ after seeing what they live like. it makes me look at my own life, though. do i live like i should daily? do i go over and beyond to help a person in need and show them love? that's what Jesus did, so why shouldn't i?
i tried explaining that it's what's in our hearts that matters. too many churches are so obsessed with rules that they get buried in their own rules and forget to look at their hearts. i wanted him to see that it doesn't matter what churches tell him or how other people act...it's about us and God. nothing else.
yes, it is heartbreaking, but God was at work. several times during the conversation, i asked God to speak through me (because i knew my words weren't enough) and maybe He did. maybe i just can't see it yet.
PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM. he really just needs prayer right now. he doesn't know what to believe and watching other "christians" is just making things worse. please pray that God will send people His way to show him what true Christ-followers look like. and please pray that God will continue to use me in his life if that's in His perfect will and that i will be obedient.
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