"Caught in a war zone"

i woke up this morning with song lyrics stuck in my head, but i couldn't remember what song it was, who sings it, or any other lyrics...i just heard something about my faith and being "torn between the truth and the liar."

as i was listening to music while writing up an interview for education, the song came on and i just stopped and said, "God, this is my song!!!"  i was about to proceed with what i was doing when i decided to take a 2 minute break and just listen to the words. i loved them so much that i wanted to share them with y'all:

War Zone: Building 429
We're all in combat for our lives
we're fighting the fear that we won't survive
and our only hope now is laying our weapons down
and falling into your arms

my faith is worn
and my hands are tired
my heart is torn
between the truth and the liar


so i run 'cause I'M DONE AND I NEED YOU
You're the One that will come to my rescue
my flesh and bones are caught in a war zone

this is the struggle; this is the curse
We're caught in the middle of Heaven and earth
and our only hope now is laying our pride down
and falling into Your arms


my faith is worn
and my hands are tired
my heart is torn
between the truth and the liar


so i run 'cause I'M DONE AND I NEED YOU
You're the One that will come to my rescue
my flesh and bones are caught in a war zone




ever wonder why it's so hard to be on earth some days? it's because we don't belong here... this is not our home. we are "caught in a war zone": we are on God's side, but in the enemy's territory. but we know the outcome of this war and God is the Winner. we are on the winning side. war is always hard, but it's worth it in the end. when this is all over and we are standing in front of the One who made everything that's beautiful, the stars, the sunrise over the horizon, the birds singing on a summer day, we won't have a care in the world other than worshipping our Creator! Glorifiying HIM is our purpose on and off this earth. imagine what it will feel like to be doing  just what we were made to do... ALL THE TIME! in the meantime, we can still glorify Him on this earth!

it's like those moments when you are worshipping and you just stand there and say "God, THIS is what i was made for! finally, i feel like i'm where i'm supposed to be." and that could look differently for all of us. for me, my favorite way to worship is by singing, but that doesn't have to be everyone's favorite way. someone told me once that they would be perfectly fine if we took out all singing in church and just had the preacher because that's one of his favorite ways to worship. maybe it's getting out into your mission field or something completely different. the point is we were made to worship HIM and THAT'S when we will feel that perfect moment of "so THIS is why i'm alive" :)

HOPE

"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down , the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock." Matthew 7:24-25

Recently, this is what I’ve felt like…beat down by the rain, drowned by the streams, and battered by the winds of life. It’s so hard and I’ve been waiting for myself to completely lose it, but it’s not happening. Sure, I’ve had a breakdown and a whole lot of days where I feel like I don’t have the energy to go on, but I know where to turn and I have hope.

Today in Human Experience class, we talked about evolution, which turned into a conversation about the meaning of life. The author of the story we read thinks our whole purpose in life is to reproduce and pass on our DNA. it was heartbreaking when one of the guys in my class actually agreed with him. He doesn’t see any real purpose in life.

in Christ, I have HOPE: “the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best”

I have HOPE!! My life has PURPOSE. Every day that I’m not dead, I know that He is not done with me yet and He has more plans for my life and I can’t wait to see what they are!

now that we have this hope, we need to share it with others...this is too good to keep to ourselves!!

something's REALLY wrong with me!

I was talking to my roommate on the phone for 2 and a half hours today while she was driving back to Winthrop and we were talking about so many deep conversations it was ridiculous!!

i was talking some things out in this conversation and telling her how some things kept me from worshipping like i should have at church this morning and i was almost in tears when i told her: God SAVED me. He freely gave me FREEDOM and i don't HAVE to worry about any of these things i'm worrying about in life at all and i COULDN'T WORSHIP HIM?? SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH ME!

"Sweep me away, sweep me away in Your love
where nothing else matters"
~Sweep Me Away by Kari Jobe

prayer

God, help me be less about me, more about others, and most about You.